In deep winter, darkness appears still and dormant, but listen closely and you will hear sounds of seeds germinating in the frozen ground, complete flowers secretly stored behind the seed’s husk. In darkness, nature finds rest, rejuvenation, and nourishment for the work of growing. Under the surface, there is invisible activity doing the essential preparation for the next step in the cycle of life.

There is also the darkness in the soul’s deep interior. Many cultures have a bone lady or skeleton woman myth. She is a woman who fell into the sea, her flesh eaten away by the sea creatures until she was nothing but bones. After a long time, a man found her and despite his fear, began to drum and care for her bones. As he drummed, she cried. Her tears and his drumbeat put flesh on her bones and returned her to vitality and love.

When bone lady comes into your life, she strips you to your core and carries away all but the essential. In time, your heart’s drumbeat ultimately calls you to dance and emerge with renewed vitality, singing as Barbara McAffee sings:

Every time I go into the darkness, I return with fistfuls of jewels.

The journey into the shadows of the soul while often painful is essential for it prepares you for your next step in life.

It is from wrestling the shadows that you become more human, more humble. Educator and activist Parker Palmer gives this beautiful reason:

Because as we do so, we will meet the darkness that we carry within ourselves—the ultimate source of the shadows that we project onto other people. If we do not understand that the enemy is within, we will find a thousand ways of making someone “out there” into the enemy, becoming (people) who oppress rather than liberate others.

In the darkness, we germinate the seeds of our lives, our creative children and dreams, and give them the nourishment needed for growth.

Fire of Letting Go
What do you need to let go of at this time? Embrace the bone lady. Ask her and the fire to take what no longer serves you. Bless the darkness and thank it for holding the seeds of your dreams.

Light

Winter solstice marks the longest night of the year. From this point on, days grow longer, second by second, minute by minute. Before, people lived more in harmony with the natural cycles of day and night, summer and winter. While some people still celebrate solstice, anticipating and reveling in the return of the sun, in a world made bright with lamps and streetlights, it’s easy to miss such an event.

Though we may skip over the astronomical event called solstice, we still feel a deep need to commemorate the turning of the seasons and mark a new beginning. And so we celebrate the New Year.

New Year’s Eve is a time for celebration and a time many people create New Years resolutions. Resolutions that often fade as the months march on. This year, instead of setting resolutions, set intentions.

Resolutions often focus on fixing something. They tend to feel set and definitive. Intentions are visualizations of how you want to be. They feel purposeful and help guide the mind. A resolution to “lose weight” becomes an intention to “feel fit and energetic”.

Even more, intentions tap into the universal energy of intent. Carlos Castaneda describes:

Intent is a force that exists in the universe. When sorcerers (those who live of the Source) beckon intent, it comes to them and sets up the path for attainment…

A Mary Oliver poem begins, “’Make of yourself a light,’ said the Buddha, before he died. ”. The light the Buddha speaks of is the Source of intent. The real you is that divine spark, the inner light that nourishes the seeds within your soul’s soil.

This year, create intentions to ignite the seeds you’ve been nourishing in the darkness. Be like the earth growing in radiance as she moves closer the sun. As you harness the power of intent and live according to your ever brightening radiance, the seeds that hold the potential of your dreams—like those that hold the potential of a pine tree or a blade of grass, will ignite with life and grow.

Fire of Intention
What do you want to bring into your life and the world at this time? How can you be of service? Ask the fire to connect you to the power of intent and ignite your dreams.

Giving to the World Visualization
Visualize a golden light within you and spread it out. First to those about you—your friends and relatives—and then gradually to the whole world—including all of nature.

Copyright ©, 2009 by Laura D’Ambrosio

On Newport Beach after a long day with a client, my brain boiled with questions and worries. I walked slowly, my head down. As each wave curled over the sand and snuck back into the sea, sandpipers skittered at the edge of the foam and little bubbles popped on the wet sand. The bubbles are the trail of live seashells burrowing back into the cool, moist sand to avoid being washed out to sea or drying out on the surface. Maybe they are also frantically avoiding the long beaks of the sandpipers.

I paused, the frigid Pacific bathing my feet as my shoulders sought the sun’s warmth. The boiling questions about my dwindling retirement account, the desert dry business climate, family agonies, and my own future slowed a little, just enough for my poetic mind to fire. “There’s got to be some big, hairy, philosophical meaning here. Some spiritual lesson I’m supposed to learn.” I took a deep breath.

Maybe I could talk about how each of us needs the dark, moist times of our lives to grow. Or maybe I could dig into the idea of cycles and circles, rhythms and flows, fear and safety. Analogies and clichés even the tired old “bury your head in the sand” floated in my mind. I pondered but no one theme stood out. I almost gave up and gave into frustration. I started to walk again, then I got it. There is no overarching spiritual meaning, no philosophical analogy to be found, no deep human lessons, at least not that day. The meaning is simply the sun warming my skin, the sea critters doing what they do every moment, the sea rolling and crashing on the beach, the gulls and pelicans hunting. The meaning is that, sometimes, it’s just a nice day.

I smiled and kept walking.